i just want you to at least pretend like you miss me.
a little.
whatever.
im so sick of caring about this.
i wish i could get one of those things from MIB.
geeze.
this is making me more and more depressed.
because he already has this new girl.
and he still has frances.
and it just makes me feel like i was nothing to him.
and i hate how everyone from work is making it sound like im being so dramatic about it.
and i haven't even said anything about him to anyone except aj in like a week.
aj is my favorite boy.
hands down.
hes the best boy ever.
like i love wesley and jizu and john and ryan.
but wesley could replace me in like 2 seconds, jizu is the same as pretty much everyone, john has a life that doesn't really involve me like at all, and i don't know ryan that much [i just think hes really nice, and really sweet and super funny]
aj is the only one that is sincere.
and when i tell him stuff, i never feel like hes going back and telling everyone what i just said.
school is going to suck.
because i've been putting off seeing derrick and all his little girlfriends for as long as i can, but at school its probably going to be right in my face.
great.
whatever.
i'll live.
this is just stupid.
and im sick of thinking about it.
i kinda wish i never would have gotten so close with the people at DQ.
all they've done is pretty much proved to me that people suck.
like i thought they were better, and made me better.
but it turned out completely different.
we had our fun.
and now its just drama.
and gay.